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[03 Apr 2007|06:08pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

i still am not sure of how he feels about me.
and no, i can't just ask.

everyone agrees that he likes me, it's obvious.
except for me.
idk, maybe i dont think he could like me, because im not gorgeous.

ughh, it's frustrating though.
he begs me to come hang out with him, and i can't yet.
i need to score a job first so that i can afford the gas trip out there, especially since my car is a gas-guzzler.
he gets disappointed when i tell him i can't.
he never lets us go longer than 3 days without conversation... [[i.e: myspace message, text, phone call]]
he complains that i dont talk to him enough.
he calls me from vactions, 47 states away from me, when he's having the time of his life, he still makes time to call me.
he calls me randomly to ask my opinion about the sports game for that day, since he knows i watch.
he never ignores my calls, and i barely have to call him because he always calls me first...
he still wants to hang out with me after he's gone to school all day and then played a long baseball game.
he asks me to hang out with him seriously everday, even on friday nights.
i live like, 25 minutes away.
you'd think if he just wanted to hang out with someone, he'd call some of his guy friends [or even his friends that are girls] that live closer.
he wouldn't waste his time calling me.

idk. i do feel like he really likes me, because we have so much in common, it's like we're made for each other... but then we're not going out, so idk how he can.
everyone says that it seems like he's not sure of my feelings for him, especially since i always say no.
they say that he probably doesn't understand why i can't make an exception to see him.
they say that he probably just thinks that im avoiding him on purpose, and that's why he's never asked me to be his gf.

i know this is stupid, but i wish i knew how he felt.
[[im still not asking him.]]
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[21 Apr 2006|01:08pm]

[ mood | confused ]

i havent posted about my relationships here in a long time.
actually, i haven't posted at all in here for a long time.
but this boy my friend likes is driving me crazy....

he's her ex boyfriend, they split a lonnng time ago, though.
theyve been rekindling the flame (kind of!) since like, november.

here's the situation:

he calls after they havent talked in a little bit.
(like, a few weeks or so)
they talk for a while, sometimes for hours at a time.
he's clingy, but in a cute way.
he finally asks her to hang out.
she agrees.
they make plans and arrange a day.
he never shows.

i think this is so weird of him because HE is always the one to make plans.
so why doesn't he show??

its not because he's using her for sex.
she already told him that sex is out of the question and ain't happening.

its not because he doesnt like her. (i dont think)
their conversations are so sappy, it makes me sick.

so what is it??

i feel so bad because as her best friend, i can't give her advice. i honestly have no idea what this guy is thinking, except that maybe he's nervous to start hanging out with her again.

i dont know.
help? please??
it would be appreciatedddd.
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I miss my daddy [28 Mar 2006|12:20pm]

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.
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I'm having serious boy problems. [14 Jan 2006|01:26pm]

[ mood | thoughtful ]

Hey everyone!

I'm totally knew to this community, so I decided I'd ask for a bit of advice.

Because I need it badly.

Very badly.

[10 things I hate about BOYS]

There's about two entries about why boys in my life are sucking.

I need serious help.



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I've got a problem, that much we know. (NEED ADVICE!) [28 Jun 2005|10:36am]

[ mood | contemplative ]

Please click below, I need advice! Gracias in advance!
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I need some advice so drop me a line or too! Muchos gracias! Thank you so much!
Michaela Chloe

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If you could take time and read this...that would be so great. [12 Jun 2005|07:38pm]

[ mood | lonely ]

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::sighs::, then puts head in hands and ::cries:: [08 Jun 2005|12:15am]

[ mood | lonely ]

I don't know why I keep holding on to him. It's been about 5 1/2 months since the break and I still keep hanging on any sign of hope, even when there is none. I want us to be back together so bad that I take any ray of hope as a sign that he wants something, even when I know he doesn't. Why is love such a small word for being such a complicated feeling. I just want things to work out, people tell me that the best things come to those who wait, well I'm waiting, so when does this get better?
~Michaela Chloe

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[07 Jun 2005|12:20am]
Sometimes I just want to hate myself for what I do.
Or try to not get with people, because I don't want to be hurt.
But, it's life...

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[01 Jun 2005|10:44pm]

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rantings! [29 May 2005|07:15pm]

hi everyone. my name is liz and im 14. i live in piermont, ny. i hate it here. (population: 2507) can you believe we're only 20 minutes frm the city? righ then anyway. to the point.
my grandfather died 4 years ago, 9 days after my 10th birthday. i was use to people dying at that age, my parents had had me later than most people and most of my family was over 50 by the time i was born. so when he died, it didnt really have that great an affect on me. at his funeral/memorial service, i tried to cry, i really did, but it wouldnt work. fast forward to about 5 months ago. i started thinking about my grandfather more and more. i would jsut b looking for something in a cabinet, and id stumble on pictures of him as a young man. or id have dreams about him. or id day dream memories that were long and forgotten. id look at another pictuer of him as a young man on the wall and start to notice similaries in our faces...ones that i had never noticed before. i feel like ive become obsessed with him. my dead grandfather. i search his obituary in the new york times everytime the 20th of the month rolls around. sometimes i completely blow of homework because i get distracted looking at baby pictures of me and him. i cant help it. i get so entranced in a world that i shared with him, a world that i took for granted, a world that was quickly snached away as soon as i began to understand it.
im hoping its okay that i share this story with you now.
we live in the same house my mother grew up in. she's lived in piermont all her life. my parents bought the house from my grandparents in 1992 when i was about 9 month old. my grandfather was extremely stubborn about leaving. my grandmother wanted to go live in a ranch house in coral gables, florida because they were both getting too old to handle the stairs. (there are 3 floors, and there are plenty of stairs outside cause the house is on a hill) my grandfather came over our house everyday when we lived in nyack. i was the youngest of 5 grandchildren, all who lived in different parts of the country. he pleaded with my grandmother to stay in piermont, but eventually he broke in. i recently learned that the real reason he didnt want to leave was because, he didnt want to leave me.

thats all. thanks for the time. -liz
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[11 May 2005|07:46am]

it's diexdie_darling
changed my name :D if you can't tell.
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I'm taking back, Everything. [07 May 2005|11:05pm]

[ mood | calm ]

I hate the feeling of being lonely.
I am not desperate. I don't care if
it's a boyfriend or what, but just
to have a guy to talk to that cares,
even the slightest bit.. is amazing.

There is no denying.
I have put this line in every
community that I am in but I
will do it again. :P

"Sometimes I wish I were a prostitute so that my heart wouldn't get broken as much, cause I wouldn't care enough"

I don't know what it's from, but
I remember seeing it,
and it's never made as much sense
as it does now. lol.
pathetic, I know I am.

The end.

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I hate this... [06 May 2005|04:45pm]

[ mood | Missing you ]

I hate your smile,
I hate your eyes,
I hate your tone,
I hate your smell,
I hate your perspective,
I hate the way you walk,
I hate the way you talk,
I hate your jokes,
I hate your emails,
I hate your dance moves,
I hate your explanations,
I hate your political views,
I hate your reasoning,
I hate your laugh,
I hate your sensitivity,
I hate your manlyness,
I hate it all,
But what I hate most is the way...
I don't hate you.

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[05 May 2005|10:31pm]

[ mood | confused ]

I want to be happy.
But I won't let myself be.
I don't want to let go of matt.
even though I know things would be better..
things will seem okay for a while, but then they just fall apart :(
it sucks.
I miss Matt :(


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[03 May 2005|10:08pm]
I just joined this community. Ony of my LJ friends requested it. Thanks <33.

I just copied and pasted this out of my journal.

I'm confused, a lot. It's just as if things aren't right anymore these days..to me..or to anyone.
It seems as if everyones going through something. Whatever's going on,I feel that it's heppening to me too. Around here, to me..it is so hard to find a good guy.They are usually jerks, or sex phenes. And they care about is making out & junk. I think it's gross. And I don't like it.
But then there's shane..oh boy shane. He lives in Cranberry, about an hour from me. He is so amazing. We went out last August-October. I still love him, a lot. I know I know, i'm only 14, what do I know about love? My feelings are strong for him. And I care about him a lot. He is so amazing. And I think about him constantly. We still haven't met in person, though. I don't know...I was talking to his friend Mark, and he also does have some good points. But, I just don't know..I kind of want to meet him in person befor we go out again. But, I also just want to be with him. Whether than means we can see eachother or not. Which matters most. Loving someone and not being with them? Or loving someone, and being with them..whether you can see them or no. I guess you can say that's a difficult choice. And yes, this is difficult for me. I'm 14, what the hell am I doing worrying about love? All I know is that I love him, and he says he loves me back. And it feels good to love someone, and being loved back. None of us seem to be doing anything about it, either. It's wierd..but I don't know. Sometimes..it feels as though we are together...by the way we talk at times. I don't worry about getting hurt. Shit happens in life, learn from it, and move on. That's the way I take it. I wish to not spend my time sad on something and/or someone. If anything, I will cry badly after it happens for a good 5-10 minutes. Then the next day, I might still be a little upset with it. Then the next day, it's almost gone. I just try to forget about it. I don't know how good or bad that is..is it good to forget things like that? Or could it be as if you don't care, therefor it's bad. I don't know...either way..I feel as if i'm screwed. I feel as if I'm following some type of trend here. People are writing in their journals lately on problems in their life & such, and things going wrong. But, it's happening to me..and i'm talking about it.

I just need some opinions on what to do, whether they are good or not. Please comment. I do NOT know what to do. I'm just so lost and confused. I wish I could find myself.
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[23 Apr 2005|06:46pm]

what is love anyways.

ahh fuck it.
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[21 Apr 2005|11:09pm]


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I'm new, and this is my story [19 Apr 2005|07:54pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

i've known this guy since about third grade, his sister and i were best friends because we were only born a week apart. for a long time all he ever was was my best friends older brother who i just happened to have a teeny tiny little girl crush on, then this summer things suddenly changed, he wasn't just my best friend's brother who was 3 years older than me. suddenly he was more than that, we started hanging out all the time, started talking about things that were important, started flirting constantly, and then one day we both kind of let it all out. we told each other how we felt about each other and bada bing bada boom we started dating. i fell head over heals immediatley, and i thought that it was the same way for him. then a month and half later he emails me to tell me that it jsut isn't working for him, and it isn't something he can make work either. that he doesn't really have any feelings towards me and doesn't know if he ever did. i'm like WHAT?! i cried and cried and cried and cried. and i decided that no matter what i still wanted to be friends, but then he decided he couldn't handle that, he couldn't handle us beign friends, not even a nice hello. then i jus tkind of kept to myself, and didn't see him for 3 months straight, but then i went back to church and saw him, and yeah, feelings, oh wow, they all fell right back into place, it was terrible. the only good part, he actually started talking to me again and we are now friends again, the problem: he may be in love with my other best friend, jeanna. UH OH! another problem: i'm still in love with brandon, and if he's in love with jeanna, well, thats an obvious problem! tell me what you think. have you been in a situation like this? i'd love to hear about it. thanks!

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[16 Apr 2005|03:22am]


Dear Romantics, This is why love sometimes hurts. Sincerely, StephCollapse )

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[13 Apr 2005|11:55pm]

i miss you right now
when the walls are ringing empty things into my ears
when all i want
is to hear your voice so soft in my ears
telling me that im still beautiful
telling me you love me at the end of such a painful day
i miss you so much right now
when my sobs are ringin into these empty walls
when all i want
is to feel your arms around me
holding me so tight
so tightly i was sure you would never let go
i miss you so much right now
when im alone between these walls
where we used to lay
naked and close all night
i miss you so much
it feels like my chest is collapsing
underneath a slab of cement
i miss you so much
when i realise that its over
that we can never have it back
even though i love you
and i will always love you
it won't be enough
i miss you so much
when i realise
that the boy i love is gone
and he's cold and cruel
that he will never be good to me again
and he doesn't care at all
if he's collapsing my thin chest
down into itself
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